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Tired of being sad.Real men don't cry, they say
Well maybe their right but
I'm stuck with dry eyes

And maybe I'm not right for her
She still sits brokenhearted
And I'm all out of tries

But your life
is worth the price
of me losing my mind

So if you start
to see me smile
Its not a sign
that I'm over you

I see you running through my dreams again
(Happens every night now)
I toss and turn at what we could have been
(I'd stop if I knew how)
It just strikes a nerve, the thought of you out with another man
Holding his hand
And you may ask me what I smile for
Maybe you think I'm happier
With you gone.

I'm not smiling 'cause I'm happy, no
I'm smiling 'cause I'm t
Just In CaseYou can dig up a grave
If you think you can wake the past
But what's the point
You're just opening old wounds
It's like sitting by a bomb about to blast

For someone who claims no death wish
You could have fooled me
But I guess you already have
There's nothing about you I'll miss
Like how you can't see

And here comes another pointed finger
But who's really to blame
You can't bring yesterday back to life
If the dead have already lost the game
But you can revive the ghosts
Violent spirits with a grudge
How the hell will you survive again
Your point of view hasn't even budged
In a court where I've become the judge
Face it
You're screwed
While y
I want to be with youI sit here alone, thinking of you
about the time that we shared, about the things we used to do
But now I'm alone and it's starting to show
How did I get here? Do you already know?

I want to be with you... but it won't happen
I want to be with you... but I can't seem to take action
It always seems that you're just passing through..
So how can I be with you?...

Time goes by and still I'm here
Yet you start to go and disappear.
How do I get your attention or do you already know?
That I want you here.. I don't want you to go...

I want to be with you... but it won't happen
I want to be with you... but I can't seem to take action
It always seem
White wolf, White flower"They say there's no such place as Paradise. Even if you search to the ends of the earth, there's nothing there. No matter how far you walk, it’s always the same road. It just goes on and on... But in spite of that, why am I so driven to find it? A voice calls to me. It says, 'Search for Paradise.'"
-Kiba
He stops to listen intently to the earth
it tells him the purpose of his birth.
A story so long and sad
when it’s over, you’ll be glad.
He pricks his ears, the wind shifts
he hears a voice that drifts.
A lunar flower is his search
Cheza, more beautiful than the trees of birch.
Arctic wolf, Lunar flower
the clock strikes 12 at the tower.
City so polluted, city so dark
how he longs for the sound of a harp.
Search for Paradise they will seek
or will it all turn in vain while we weep?
Endless deaths awaken the agony of sorrow
the pain, the losses, the tears never ending until tomorrow.
A cloud once white now stained with red
every dream you once had read.
Weep we
Rise From The AshesHold on
Hold on to me
Darling
Hold on
Hold on to me

Don't cut yourself with the jagged edge
Of cruel words and reprimands
Remember this
Your light shines brightest in the dark

When shadows leap and faith is gone
And fake obligations seem to have won
You've fallen
From grace and into the fire
But that doesn't have to be your funeral pyre

Darling
Look to me
I'm just as broken as you are
Let's set ourselves free
No need for anymore of these scars
Together we can rise from the ashes
We'll fight back
When insensitivity and anger clashes

It's not over until after you last breath
When you've faded into death
Keep in mind
You should never take yo
renegeon the wings of a gossamer shimmer
a nearly undetectable shiver
you hesitate to pull the trigger
one too many in the chamber

inside a delectable silence
testing the limits of your compliance
vague back-talk, uneasy defiance
love’s not love without the violence

no grace
no dance
you don’t get a second chance
you just get to get
out of my way

just so you know
my stance
this was not a romance
this was a game you didn’t know
how to play

on the back of unsteady denial
a priest, a sinner, a saint, a bibliophile
go ahead, put me up for trial
I won’t stop tilting the vial

no light
no sheen
you’re as heady as a dream
Once Upon A NightmarePain the world never knew and yet has forgotten
Scars where blood once ran free
Time to finish what I started
Once upon a nightmare

Do I feel
Do I bleed
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to see

With every shot at my will
You take my breath away
But you don't give it back
Ready, set, go for the kill

Do you know how many times
I've tried to wipe my mind clean
But you keep adding dirt and grime
To my very own murder scene
Not that you see
Not that you care
Not that you even know me

Do I cry
Do I scream
Wouldn't you like to know
Wouldn't you like to see

So often falling to take it
Just another worthless life
Everything's is not oka
Invisible ManAs I make my way through everyday
I feel the empty presence
The stories I hear fill my head with fear
And a hatred of burning rage

Don't even try to make amends
Before your life of pity ends
Never wanted me, got no sympathy
I just can't take the pain

If there was a time when your evil mind
Wasn't filled with ice and stone
Well, now it's too late to disintegrate
So just leave me alone

Don't you dare think that I'll bend
To that stupid silly trend
No happy ending waits at the end of the lane
'Cause I just can't take the pain

I don't know where you went, but you didn't repent
For your sneaky dirty sins
Just a fear-powered coward, living in a
Broadway Specials: Ave Lillian
Verse I:

Vercelli’s pulling out his wand
Blinking too slowly when I see you’re gone.
I hear a voice screaming in my head
(Chaos I think we’ve got a problem)
Where does everybody go when they go?
What do you believe, there’s no way to know.
We hate so fast and we love so slow.
(Juggernaut I think we have a PROBLEM!)
Sit down and think about it
Still on the brink of doubt and
I finally click about it.
My world’s spinnin’

Chorus:

Ave Lillian.
Where did you go?
Where did you go?
How did you know to get out of a world gone mad?
Help me let go.
It’s my fault that she’s bleeding.
His words are misle
The Mother of LossA boat called hope on a sea of fear.
It’s the mother of let down,
and that’s what brought me here.

I let go of your hopes.
    I let go of mine.
I let go of all those
    unbound by time.
If it’s gonna happen
 It’s  gonna happen either way.
Whether I want it to
  or not.
Whether I can stand to stay.
   I’m looking for something new.
     Preferring what I know
the one closest to me,
      the closest one to you.

   I’m so far gone, I’m so far lost.
  I lost control and I paid the cost.
I’ve been here too many times,
 and I’ve said that before.
    Dying for hope,
         
The Heart Believes[Verse]
Tell me I'm the one who keeps you awake.
Tell me I'm the one who's there when you make mistakes.
Tell me I'm the cloud you watch in the sky.
Tell me I'm the one who's there when you fall and cry.

Oh, I.. I can't believe this is happening,
I thought I had control of everything.
All the things I thought would be okay.
Are taking me back to yesterday.

Woah-oh...
Oh I wish that I could just move on..

(Chorus)
But darling, things just don't work out that way.
There's always a few hearts that can't be saved.
I wish that these stories were based on truth,
'cause I just can't believe I've fallen for you.

[Verse]
Tell me you're the one who
Why my friend...Thrashing, I'm faint
I just could not take this pain anymore
Holding onto that only hope

hope that you will come very soon
Where are you now?

I'm so lonely.

But you don't want, don't want to return.
Why my friend?

Angry at you-
I regret that I believed in you

Stay here my friend,
I don't want you to go
Come now, my friend

my friend.....
To survive.It's interesting how as time goes on, your friends
move on. Before you know it they're gone, time to
move on. I say I miss you, if don't nobody else miss you.
I know, life sucks, but we must carry on, survival is a must.
Taking the bus sucks, but we must. Sometimes people do wrong
to us, but don't cry keep ya head up. And when people say
you're nothing don't believe em, time to move up and
just leave em. Cause friend you can believe, that when I
say you're a success, you know you're the best.
No need for a bullet proof vest.

You know what makes me unhappy, is watching friends struggling,
juggling with their lives, living life abjectly.
Livin
I'm reaching out to you momI'm reaching out to you mom,
I don't know what's going on
in your world anymore
and it scares me.
I love you no matter what,
stop,
re-read that.
I mean it mom.
It's hard to take every moment
and go with it,
but you gotta stop.
Just stop and breath ahh.
And yes i'm writing this to a beat ahh,
that's when i have my feet
and the whole wide world beneath em.
Just lookin' out breathin' yeah,
this is how it is now like
life gave me a loaded gun
blOWE
just know no matter what mom ill
always have a spot in my heart
to carry on the best in you,
it's what i can do.
And i don't know how
but i'll find a way to
carry your memory
to infinity and beyond.
A thanks and a glareTo you
I was nothing more than that
just a doll, your puppet to use

To you,
I was but only a toy for games
Just a piece of cloth to be forgotten....

But with that...
I have learned to be much stronger
And now I
Know what power truly is

So I give you a thanks!
And I give you a smile!
But I never forget the scars
you left on my heart!

So I give you a glare!
And I give you a scream!
And I never forget
What you meant to me!

To me,
you were a friend of high ranks
A trusted comrade in arms

To me,
you were inspiring, and kind
And a never believed you'd be anything less

So I give you a thanks!
And I give you a smile!
But I never forget the
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